Darling, when you reach the age of 20 you will cry. But this is not a cry of happiness or aging. This is a cry of regret. Darling, when you reach the age of 20 you will find out what went wrong. You will know your mistakes and you wouldn’t give a damn. When you reach the age of 20, you’ll cry more. You won’t be able to sleep. You will struggle at 2am. You will open the fridge and see nothing but instant food. There’s instant noodle. You’ll see that everything is frozen. Not just in your fridge. Time is frozen but you will feel that your running out of it. You’ll blame your Mama for not forcing you to sleep. Believe me. You will want to slap your old self because you won’t sleep. Now you’re 20 and sleep deprived. Darling, he is still the one. Yes that’s right. The boy with dirty hair and noisy music, he will grow up and be a man. You will love him. You will kill for him. You will die for him. He will do the same for you. When you reach the age of 20, you will let him fuck you. He will not take it like a thief. You will hand it to him like Cadbury. He will not hesitate. He will take it and you will cry. You’ll scream because it hurts but this is not the kind of hurt you’re thinking. It won’t be like bruise kind of pain. It’s not going to be mild. It will be agonizing. It will feel like fire but you won’t get burned. You won’t turn to ash. You will be enclosed in a furnace. When you reach the age of 20, you’ll be fucked. Yes, you will be. You will moan. You will let him eat you alive. You will beg for every swallow and tongue movements. Darling, when you reach the age of 20 you will dream of being 17. you will miss being called a teenager. You will long for innocence. You will trade anything just to play with wildflowers again. When you reach the age of 20, you will run. It will be an escape kind of run. It will be a please-don’t-talk-to-me kind of run. You will tell people this: pretend you don’t know me. It will feel good. No. It will feel enough. When you reach the age of 20, you will remember everything and remembering isn’t always good. You will remember every laughter you’ve had but you will forget who you were laughing with. You will remember every pain and it would all be worth it. You will remember that every past was a broken glass and somehow, you will still allow yourself to touch it and bleed. You will remember that it’s always too late or it’s never too soon. Darling, when you reach the age of 20, you will be happy. Believe me. I know this because I am you and you are me.

-irishjulienne, dear teenage-self: this is what happens when you reach the age of twenty (via talkingoutsoft)


And in the end we’re all just humans… drunk on the idea that love, only love, could heal our brokenness.

-F. Scott Fitzgerald (via itsmicca)





drake stoppin the game to see if the ladies in the crowd are being treated well

what about that guy in the back tryna dunk without a ball

dont stunt his game



I think once you reach a particular age, you are hit with the heartbreaking realisation that family isn’t everything. There’s this idea instilled in you from an early age that blood is thicker than water and family trumps all. But that’s not always the case.

Sometimes, it just so happens that…

I can relate.


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